i could probably say i got a little outta hand.
but hey, i had a really good time.
And tonight, can only end up better
:D
and get really trashed tonight with Vegas Jesse.
BAHAHA
I am getting this faggot fucking drunk.
.. And BTW.. Seriously, FUCK YOU.
needed today.
it was nice.
amazing.
Yesterday was not all that bad, like i thought it would be.
had a nice talk with a special someone, and that made it alright.
And i sure do pity that someone that loves to point out my flaws in life, when
in fact, they know nothing about it.
You think you know everything about, well everything.
Because you know my life, and you know what i am, and
you know exactly what im going/ive been through. What really dumbfounds me
is when people are so quick to judge and make assumptions. Just live your life
and let me live mine. No one asked you to come and read this, no told told you to.
These are MY feelings, and MY thoughts. I mean, if you want, you can keep your sad
excuse for a vox and write all your thoughts so i dont have to hear them. Because i really dont
care. I dont care about anything, about anyone. Not even your petty words. So let me continue to
write my thoughts and feelings, and you can go live your glorious life. because we all know thats exactly
what you have. Get on your fucking knees and pray to the sky like you always have. Because thats the only
form of security you have. I have my friends, and my music, and thats i care about and need. Thanks for the attention
thought. Because we all know how jon lovessss attention.
LETS GET DRUNKKKK
Isnt that what you want to hear?
A lot is going on right now. My mind is spinning out of control, People are getting fuzzier and fuzzier, And life
is getting lost. I have no clue as to what i am doing here or what i am supposed to be doing here. Everyones life
is moving. I am in this ditch, this hole, this bump, and i cannot break myself free. Maybe i just need someone new
so i can continue this false world. Maybe not someone new, but someone i can spend time with.
Sometimes, its the last person youll ever think..
Destroy your mind, And be set free
ive come to an epiphany;
No one is real, the life i live is a total figment of my imagination. I feel like my body and mind are trying to cope with the harsh reality it truly is in, Therefore having to create this false fake world in which horrible, fake, rude, ignorant, disgusting, conniving, cheating, lying, people exist. They exist only to derail my mind off what is really going on. To "keep me busy" you can say. I truly believe this and will now live my life in a complete different manner. I will seize every day as if it is my last. I will try my hardest NOT to meet anyone, because this will only further me into this false "world".
I mostly think this because things happen too coincidentally for me. I am destroying myself.
Lets start out fresh.
whittier tonight :]
