I wanna visit you everywhere, so many places not yet explored and you're in my backyard.
Thats actually weird, I hope to put on my pirate hat and go on my boat and travel your concrete
and tall buildings. Meet the people in that inhabit you and just have fun all over your face.
I kinda wish you read these, so that I could get a laugh out of you.
It's silly really, when I was younger I use to watch this anime...haha it's kinda sad
and funny at the same time. The anime was "Sailor Moon"...It's exactly as I
stated before sad right? Man I'm laughing so hard as I write this; I also use to
listen to Britney Spears.(ya ya all that tiny bopper Bull crap) Well I have never
admitted it or at least not to people outside of my immediate family. The reason
being simple Society, it held me back; boys aren't allowed to watch/hear those
things let me rephrase that"normal" boys aren't allowed. After reading "The Self"
unit in the book, it helped me actually want to be honest (plus I had a melody they
played on the show stuck in my mind LoL) and just say it's okay to watch and hear
stuff thats out of the norm.In my defense, though I was like seven or eight when I
was into these things.
haha Identity its a funny thing
least the cartoon was morally good
I'd like to think it made me a better person
idk about Britney tho it might have been me
going temporarily insane <.>
p.s I am just me
which is normal
Dr. Lin scared me she said "if you plan to be a doctor I expect for you to get an
A in my course" I have been studying like a fiend.Man I'm so nervous I MUST
get one at all cost (not a threat idk who maybe monitoring this blog) but ya
that class might kill me so I am studying extra hard I hope it pays off.
I hope you go back to school. I want you to be happy instead of feeling like you're
a blob, but you're not really because at least you're taking care of your son <3
(riding on the metro) I could just imagine that song while you're on the way to
school =3
This is from a show I saw
"Everyday we make hundreds of choices, most of them in acquiesce either or kind of decisions. Like should I turn left or right? Others require a bit more thought like should I order the bacon cheeseburger? which I love or some low fat flavorless salad that's healthy for me, but I know ultimately will leave me unsatisfied, and then there are those really tough choices like should I sleep with someone just because I feel isolated and urn so deeply for any kind of human contact that my skin aches"
this hit me like a ton of bricks because because if the decision were up to me I'd probably do it and regret it in the morning.
Eshhh that's the color of my personality! why? I hate it sometimes I'm so passive it makes me want to scream. I sometimes wish I was a Yellow or a Red hell I'd even be a Blue (Emo ones) but my color is so annoying. I put myself before others (everyone always fucks me...not literally) I help them out and I am there when they need me but god forbid I need them for anything Reliability, Honesty, Passive those are the things I am prone to. =/ Look at Yellows for instance They have ALOT of fun make new friends, party animals have such a great time my bro is alot like that but hes also a little bit of a Red. Now Reds...those are the smart ones They Manipulate, Stubborn, Leader, Aggressive my complete opposite of what I am.Blues are some what mellow but Emo (like daniela <3 her buts its true) over thinking things Letting their emotions control their actions.
Idk I guess the colors have their Pros and Cons but I wish I could just switch personalties ya know? Even for a day that would rock. Hear I am just wanting something that I probably won't get Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Man I Whine alot :< haha I need to get over it and move on. Soooo what? I ams who I ams but all I can do is try to change little by little and hopefully look back and feel that I have made a HUGE change don't ya think?
You were a brother to me and you didn't even know it, sometimes I forget I even thought of you in such a way. I look at you with so much disdain and I remember at times like these when your words still cut deeper then any blade.. it's a little embarrassing. I hate you secretly and I feel like telling you but there is no point because our friendship was lost many moons ago and you have probably already realized it but have no idea at the same time. "You don't know love because you don't let anyone love you" very deep... when did you get so wise brother? I remember you could not make a decision without my advise now look at you all grown up you are becoming a better person in certain ways but in so many others you're still awful and whats most troubling to me is that, back then you had my honesty and now you get nothing from me you will live your life just as I have lived mine without you and we seem to be doing well for ourselves.
p.s it was nice to remember what it was like to have you as a brother
"Death comes to us all, but great achievements build a monument that will endure until the sun grows cold."
George Fabrica
I have to pick up the pieces of my life and make them into a functioning and productive entity... ya I don't even know where to begin @.@ ugh life is easy we just make it hard =3
Man this chick named Nicole C. haha (inside thing) I could not remember for the life of mewho she was, well she works at my job and she recognized me. she told me my face hasn't changed a bit =) does that mean she noticed me before? haha w/e I was just shocked is all. Idk if it's a good thing St. Dominic Savio was not the best place. Actually I hate it beyond belief but god forbid I would have told anyone at that time. I have the potential to talk to those jerks but will I open that can of worms? b/c If I find the assholes of my childhood I might go off on them. idk what to do yet ...I guess I'll see , but to be honest I am a lil curious there is this girl I want to see my 1st crush see if she still has "it"
friend late night talks about the most trivial stuff EVER!
uhh gossip only with you tho since thats not a manly quality :/
your taste in music
randomness
advice
talks of the future
travel
meeting new ppl
sessions haha
drinking
and much more
many things but I don't mean to talk about these things in the past since I mean I'm sure they will come back over time. It's just that waiting is ultra lame idk when the friendship is going to kick off again not to say its over more like suspended? ugh w/e I shall see
